Fro-Yo Lover

On Keeping Promises

2011-06-18T00:13:00.001-03:00

Ok, so…

I hate to admit it – I’m usually a trustworthy person… But I did not honor my promise to be back soon

I’m sorry again, guys! School’s been hectic, and all I can do is study, study, and study a little more. I’m actually sick right now – missed my friend’s party and everything – but I usually don’t have the rime to do much besides studying. At all.

I know it sounds exaggerate, but I’m really not kidding – things get complicated when you have physics, maths, chemistry, history, portuguese, french, geography, philosophy, sociology, P.E., literature, biology and music to study!

But anyway… I should stop excusing. Moving forward is the way to go

So, on the last few days, I have been studying a lot. But on Tuesday, my bestfriend Ananda’s birthday, we decided to throw her a surprise party – which was definitely fun!

On Wednesday, I met my Grandpa, my Aunt and my cousins for dinner. It was actually really fun – I love hanging out with my cousins and grandpa! They’re hilarious.

On Thursday, nothing really exciting happened… except for our “June Party” rehearsal.

What – you guys don’t know what a “June Party” is?!

Mine’s tomorrow, so… I’ll just let you guys see it for yourselves

In terms of food… I haven’t been really paying too much attention to what I’ve been eating. ED thoughts keep coming back and fourth, but I knew it’d happen sooner or later. But, believe me – I’m fighting against it as much as I can.

WIBA (what I’ve been eating):

Roasted Pumpkin, egg omelet, cooked veggies

Egg omelet, cooked veggies

Roasted Pumpkin, cooked veggies, omelet

Cottage Cheese + Green Grapes

Cheese quiche, couscous salad, chickpea+sundried tomatoes

Roasted veggies, quiche on the side

Cereal + PB

Fruit salad

Turkey Lasagna, veggies

Make-Your-Own Salad

Cottage Cheese + Fiber One

Cereal+PB

Vegetable soup

Quiche+veggies

Apple+PB

Make Your Own Salad

Baked pumpkin and sweet potato, cassava, vegetable quiche

CIAJ

Quiche, veggies

Carrot quiche, chickpea salad

Anyway… I gotta go to bed!

I wish I had the energy to write a bit more… But it’s just NOT possible!

See you guys as soon as I can!

Bonne nuit à tous!

XOXO

On My “Act of Disappearance”

2011-05-30T23:48:00.001-03:00

Hey, GUYS!

I have TONS of things to do today, my “to-do list” is enormous, but I just can’t take it anymore…

I need to BLOG!

Hahahahaha. I’m serious, guys! I missed y’all

You’re probably wondering why did I stop in the first place. Well, besides being SUPER busy with school-related stuff, my computer died

I know, terrible, right? And (almost) all of my pictures were there! Argh.

Thankfully, I have Mom’s laptop to rely on. Thanks, Mom

(Have I mentioned that she’s on honeymoon/vacation with my stepfather? They first went to Berlin, but they’re curently in Paris! Doesn’t she look gorgeous?)

So, let’s move on the fun stuff.. What did I miss?!

I know Gabriela travelled to London and met two lovely ladies: Carrie and Freya!

I’m also aware that Emma has learnt an important lesson while recovering from her injury - a Medial Stress Syndrome. {By the way… you’re AWESOME, girl! I’m sure you’ll get better soon and that you’ll join the running club in no time! You can do it, love! }

But, apart from that… NADA! Fill me in, people!

I wish I could stay and chat (write – you get the point), but it’s almost midnight and I gotta go to bed immediately!

So these are just some recent pics I took… Some weren’t really good, so – sorry! I promise I’ll try my best to take more good-quality pictures

3, 2, 1… go!

Whole Wheat Banana Pie

Roasted Chicken, Roasted Pumpkin, chayote, sautéed spinach, cooked beets

Mini-apple

Cheese quiche, garbanzo bean salad, zucchini+eggplant couscous salad

Whole Wheat Banana Pie (from somewhere else!)

Cheese quiche, cauliflower+broccoli+peas salad and eggplant+ zucchini couscous

Roasted pumpkin and sweet potato, garbanzo beans

Whole Wheat Banana Pie (yep, again…)

“Create your own” salad – with lemon+yogurt dressing

Whole Wheat Banana Pie (repetitive much?)

Subway’s Chicken Breast Salad (BBQ sauce and tons of pickles!)

Pear

CIAJ (Cereal In A Jar, no explanation needed)

Chicken Pie, Eggplant+Tomato salad

Cottage cheese+Fiber One

Apple+PB

Spinach Quiche, zucchini+eggplant couscous

Fatima’s Vegetable Pie (our housekeeper! She makes the best WW pies), cooked beets, roasted sweet potato

WWBP (You know what it is… *black and yellow, black and yellow, black and yellow, black and yellow… Hahaha*)

“Make our own” salad (grated carrots, beets, sliced pineapple, dried tomatoes, Eggplant Lasagna, mustard)

WWBP (I swear Balada Mix’s pie is the BEST)

FSIAC (Fruit Salad In a Cup)

WWBP (from Mundo Verde.. 2nd best, I’d say)

WWBP (from Balada Mix, once again! YAY!)

Roasted kabocha, egg omelete, cooked eggplant, zucchini and cabbage

Wow… And I though it would be quick!

Silly me.. Hahaha.

As you guys may have noticed, I have a liiiitle Whole Wheat Banana Pie problem…

I mean… at least it’s healthy, right? It has bananas, oats, it’s whole wheat…

But, most importantly… It’s DELICIOUS!

I wish I could send you guys some WWBP right now!

As soon as I find a way to freeze and send it… I swear I’ll do a giveaway

Now, bed’s calling!

This time’s true – I’ll be back!

XOXO,

I still can’t believe I did it!

2011-05-09T22:44:00.001-03:00

I finally did it…

It took me 16 years, but I finnaly did it!

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I GOT MY EARS PIERCED!

More details to come!

See you soon,

Life’s What You Make It

2011-05-06T17:06:00.001-03:00

I might be starting my post with a Hannah Montana quote…

But it pretty much sums up what I’ve learned on the past weeks.

First of all, hey everyone!

I’m sorry I left you for so long. I travalled as soon as my tests were over, and then time flew by… And here I am today. Trying to write a post about how I’ve been doing. Haha.

Oh, well. It turns out that my grades weren’t so good this bimester. Which made me pretty upset for a few days.

I’m actually glad I wasn’t able to post when I first got my report. It would’ve been a pretty depressive post. And, trust me - you don’t want to see me acting like a major Debbie Downer. I can play that part pretty well, if you let me.

It’s ok, though. I mean, grades weren’t so hight - so what? Grades don’t define me. I’m much more then a bad grade in physics. Plus, there’s always the next bimester to dominate. 2nd bimester, beware – I OWN you! :)

Onto more exciting news, I’ve been attending English classes twice a week for a month now, and I’m loving it! It feels so good to be able to speak English and not be stared at. I absolutely LOVE English!

Recovery-wise, it’s been hard. I know they say that, when our bodies reach a healthy weight, they’re likely to mantain that weight… But that hasn’t happened to me yet.

Numbers say I’m at a healthy weight. But, apparently, my body doesn’t get that. My weight fluctuates a lot. I mean, literally. I can gain or loose about 3kg every week. And it all depends on how much I’ve been eating. It’s so annoying… my pants fit me, don’t fit me, then fit me again. Mom doesn’t want to buy me new clothes – she probably thinks I could afford to gain more… But I don’t want to. I’m done with the “eat, eat, eat” mentality. And everyone’s commenting on how great I look – they say I’ve gotten my “healthy glow” back. And I’m not even annoyed by those comments! I don’t consider those “real compliments”, but I no longer feel “atacked” or hurt.

Hopefully, it’s just a matter of time.

Until then… I’ll go with “fake it ‘till you make it” ;)

Food-wise… I’ll let you guys see for yourselves!

I promise to be back as soon as possible, but as you can probably tell, studies will be a big part of my life until July! Wish me luck, peeps :)

See you all in a bit!

XOXO

It’s (Almost) Easter Break!

2011-04-19T16:33:00.001-03:00

Hey, everyone!

Only two more tests and I’m FREE! I just can’t wait to be done with all these tests. I generally like doing tests (such a nerd…), but Easter Break is just around the corner and I feel like resting and being a bit unproductive for a change :)

Last weekend was pretty fun. Like I told you guys on my last post, I went to the “PUC por um dia'” event on Friday, which was really fun. I went to 5 (!) different lectures:

10-11am : Writers Degree

11:30-12:30am : Journalism

1pm : French Culture

3pm : Letters Degree

4pm : Translation

Lines were incredibly long, I spent the whole day stading on my feet, I barely had a break – I had less then 15 minutes to eat lunch, since I had to run across the campus to find the location of the “Letters Degree” lecture – and by 5:15pm I was about to pass out, I was SO exhausted!

But (thankfully) it was all worth it. The lectures were pretty amazing (except for the Journalism one… there were too many people there and the lecturer, who was supposed to explain at least a little bit about the Journalism course, spend almost 40 minutes showing us their website. How useless is that?! We’re from the internet generation, ‘fella! We could’ve seen your website by ourselves, at home), I met some cool girls and boys from schools all over Rio, and I really enjoyed myself. I guess I could say “PUC por um dia” was a sucess :)

Although, I couldn’t really make up my mind. I’m freaking out because I don’t know whether to choose Letters or Journalism. Journalism or Letters. S.O.S, people! I need HELP!

I mean… not really. Don’t worry, I’m not so desesperate as I sound :)

But I’m really indecisive about this. Luckily, I have at least one and a half years to decide… thank God. Hahaha.

Anyway. Moving on to Saturday…

I dressed up as Tinkerbell… How original am I? Hahaha.

We all had a blast. My favorite costume was definitely my “white-haired” friend’s – he dressed up as Albert Einstein!

Gotta love making fun faces :)

I’ll leave the deets for a future post… Let’s move on the the eats!

Gotta go back to chemistry and literature…

See you guys as soon as I get back from my Easter Break trip!

;)

XOXO

Feeling Like Myself

2011-04-14T17:05:00.001-03:00

Hello, everyone!

As I told you before, I’m in the middle of test week… And tests have been pretty tough so far! I just hope Math Test on Monday is easier. (Pretty pretty please? Haha)

Anyway, as we’re visiting PUC (Pontifical Catholic University) tomorrow for the “PUC por um dia” event… Friday tests have been CANCELED! I’m SO glad I don’t have to worry about Maths, History, Geography, Chemistry or any subject for that matter today :)

“Un cadeau de la providance”, really! (FYI: that means “a gift from God”… right Gabriela?)

So I finally found some free time to write a real post. I’ve been wanting to share this for a while now, but… In my New Years resolutions, I decided to make the most out of 2011. But at that time, my idea of “enjoyment” were parties, meeting new people, doing stupid things, becoming more popular… you know the drill.

What happened, though, was that I found out I was wrong.

First, “making the most out of 2011” could mean many things. Of course, parties and some irresponsibility could be a part of it. But… I’d be lying to myself.

I was never that girl. You know her – that girl who loves to party, to drink, to have fun; who’s irresponsible and carefree.

During my ED days, I was the complete opposite. I was the responsible, hard-working, restrained, shy and quiet girl.

The thing is, my family took a long time to notice that. Because I was always responsible. I’ve always loved to study. I’ve always had good grades. And I’ve never cared about being the center of attention – although I actually remember being pretty confident as a kid. And I liked my body – which I’m still working on nowadays.

But since I’ve had EDs on and off since I was 11, my confidence vanished. All I cared about was being perfect, in every sense of the word. I was struggling and fighting against an “invisible” enemy – my own brain.

Luckily, ED is each day a smaller part of my life. Of course I’ve had many ups and downs – but I’ll keep fighting until it’s gone. I want to – I have to.

I’m getting my life back. I feel like myself again. I joke, I laugh, I enjoy my friends’ company, I’m no longer as obsessed about perfection as I was once before… But I still study. I still love to spend some time alone. I still love to stay home at night (what? I never said I was normal… haha).

I’ve truly learned a big lesson on the last few days. I might like to study, get good grades, do nerd-y things, sleep early and watch movies at home with my Mom and Lelê on Friday nights… But that’s just ME. Not ED. I am who I am, and I can’t change that. I love to be who I am – and I wouldn’t have it any other way :)

Hey, maybe I’m not partying, doing crazy stuff, kissing boys like there’s no tomorrow and drinking booze like the other girls… But that doesn’t mean I’m not having fun while watching “Startrek” with my best friend, reading a book about the Russian Revolution by myself or dancing to Black Eyed Peas’ song “I Gotta Feeling” with my baby sister in my room. I’m just… a bit different. I am… myself. Nice to meet you ;)

Some eats (to make this post a little more colorful, haha):

I guess that’s all… I promise to enjoy tomorrow as much as I can and take as many pictures as possible :)

I hope you’re all having a great week – see you soon!

XOXO

Rio

2011-04-10T21:43:00.001-03:00

Hey, guys!

I said I’d be back, so here I am… I’ll be posting as much as I can from now on :)

Today was actually fun. I woke up pretty early (I actually thought I’d wake up around noon today, because I was REALLY tired yesterday), so I decided to do something useful. I finished “Noite na Taverna” for literature class and checked in Fro-Yo Lover Blog’s twitter.

We didn’t have much to eat and I was the only one awake (plus Baby Mig… he doesn’t count, though), but as I was kind of hungry, I ended up eating two tomatoes.

(Yep, I eat tomatoes like I eat apples… only I love to add BBQ sauce and ketchup to my tomatoes, haha.)

Then, Mom bought us all tickets to see “Rio” – me, Bruna and Lelê. Before leaving, by noon, I had a “snack” of all sorts:

Sliced Banana plus 1tbsp of rolled oats

“Rio” was pretty amazing. I loved it! It was funny, cute, and everything I hoped it would be. They did a great job showing what Rio’s all about – at least during Carnival ;)

After the movie, I was HANGRY. So me and Lelê went straight to Boomerang Mix, a restaurant I personally love. I ordered the same thing I always do - “Make Your Own Salad” with a glass of Iced Tea.

Pineapple and Mango on the side ;)

Mom and Bruna arrived a little later, too. We all ate and chatted. After that, I went to the grocery store and then finally back home. I spent the rest of the day studying, so I’m pretty exhausted right now!I had something “light” for dinner because I’m going straight to bed. But don’t worry – tomorrow’s breakfast will make up for it ;)

Yogurt+Fiber One

I hope I can study more tomorrow – and, most importantly, focus more! Gabriela’s right – being from the Twitter and the Facebook generation is pretty hard! I have to stop procrastinating and start being more productive. Tomorrow will be 100% filled with study! Plus a yoga class I’m attendind at 1pm, haha. But you get the point ;)

I can’t promise anything, but I’ll try to post tomorrow night. Who knows – I just might end up doing a post on what I’m studying ;)

Have a great (test) week, guys!

XOXO

Saturdays Are Not School Days

2011-04-09T23:02:00.001-03:00

Hey, everyone!

I guess I took too long to post again…

I should be honest. I wanted advice. I actually had a few things in mind to post (like, the day after my last post), but I decided to wait. I wanted to read more comments so I could make up my mind.

THANK YOU, guys. Seriously, your comments were awesome. I don’t even know what I’d do if I didn’t have you :)

I decided to wait. I won’t make my Mom go to court and ask for my guard or anything, but I won’t call him or go to his house either. He’ll have to be the one to apologize this time. And if he doesn’t… well, too bad for him, right? All I know is that I have to move on. Crying over spilled milk is a big waste of time.

Anyway, onto more exciting news… I went to school today (on a Saturday)!

Ok, that’s not exactly exciting. I know that. But, in theory, it would be fun. Sophomore and Senior students would attend lectures based on what career they’d like to follow (in Brazil, you have to choose which field do you want from the beginning).

I heard lawyers and publicists. I actually wanted to know more about Journalism and Languages (in Brazil, we call it “Letras” course), but the journalist who’d talk to us never came. Too bad…

I was always interested about law. I mean, history, geography and english (in my case, portuguese)? All my favorite subjects in one single career?! AWESOME!

But being a lawyer isn’t what I want. At all. I wanted to write for a living. I was born this way, baby ;)

Today was kind of fun, though. Gotta love thinking about the future!

Now, since I spent so long without posting… here’s photoload!

I promise I’ll try to post more regularly – it’s just that next week’s test week for me, so it’ll be pretty rough for me to study+blog (plus breathe, eat, rest… haha). But I’ll do my best!

Have an awesome (rest of) weekend!

XOXO

Don’t You Ever Touch Me Again

2011-04-02T21:12:00.001-03:00

Hello, everyone.

I’m sorry I waited until today to post – but I had to. I was going to post yesterday about my city tour (school project) and my latest tests (chemistry, sociology… let’s just forget about that stupid math test for a second), but as I was about to leave to my Dad’s house, I decided to finish that post later. Everything’s changed now.

Let me clarify. Or even better, let me tell you a story.

My parents got divorced on 2000. I was 5. It’s funny how I never really suffered to see my parents apart – I always thought they’d be better off alone. They used to fight quite a lot, so when we moved out it was no big deal (emotionally-wise).

Me and my sister went to live with Mom. We moved to a neighborhood far away from our home with Dad – about an hour away. A few months later, Mom met Stepfather (thank God for that, btw), which was pretty amazing. I always loved him, even though him and Mom went through some rough times. They now have 2 kids together (Lelê, who’s 5, and Baby Mig, who’s 6 months-old), and 2011 marks they’re 11th anniversary (even though they’re not actually married). I consider myself lucky to be surrounded by all these wonderful babies and this beautiful family – stepfather’s definitely (an important) part of my family.

Dad-wise, we always lived far from each other. I used to go to his house every 15 days. But I feel like it’s been an eternity since we were really close – now’s just all about fights and screams. No fun, no fun at all.

Anyway, I was on Dad’s car last night, with him and my sister Bruna. They started a discussion about the “Meet and Greet” ticket most artists sell so the fans can take pictures, meet them, have their CDs signed, etc. All of a sudden, when I decided to share my opinion, Dad cut me out, screaming at me the way he usually does. But I had decided I would not let him talk to me like that – not when I hadn’t done anything wrong. Is it wrong to say: “Dad, I agree with you when you say it’s absurd for a fan to pay in order to meet his favorite singer while the fans are actually the reason why every artist gets to perform, but… (he didn’t let me finish)”?

So I said: “Calm down, Dad! I was just sharing my opinion. You don’t need to scream at me. I didn’t mean to offend you.”

To which he replied: “CALM DOWN?! YOU JUST TOLD ME TO CALM DOWN?! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU’RE TALKING TO?!”

And then he hit me. My left arm turned red and then purple instantly, and I couldn’t feel anything but deep pain.

This happened before. Twice. Mom and Dad had already fought over this same subject. The last time it happened, I blogged about it.

But this time’s different. I didn’t disrespect him, like he said I did. And, even if I had disrespected him, he has no right to hit me. I’m 16 now, and I won’t let him do this to me ever again. Never again.

When I was little, he used to hit our hands until they were bright red, seething with pain. I always thought it wasn’t fair, but I never complained. I thought every father did that.

Now I know that’s not true. I know now that it is possible to raise a child without hurting her physically (or emotionally, by the way). Personally, after all I’ve been through, I vowed to never hit my children like my Dad did. I can ground them, talk to them, argue with them. But hurt them? Nope, never.

To make a long story short, I called Mom to tell her what happened so she could tell me if I was right or wrong (I thought I was right, but everyone at Dad’s house was screaming at me, saying me and my sister were rude, disrespectful, etc… I couldn’t make my mind up), and she was really pissed off. She tried to call Dad, but he ignored all her calls. So Mom called Grandpa (her Dad) to see if he could pick me up – unfortunately, he was out of town. She called me again saying she’d pick me up first thing in the morning. I spend the whole night crying, and asked my sister to sleep by my side. I was scared of my father’s reaction. I thought he might come back to argue/hit me again. It was awful.

I couldn’t sleep properly, and even though I went to bed at around 2am, I was wide awake by 8am. I waited for Mom in bed until noon, when she called to tell me she was almost there, and that I should get ready to leave.

The last time I talked to him was last night, before the “incident”. Since then, he didn’t talk, text or call me. I decided I wouldn’t be the first to call, so I’ll probaly have to wait a little while until he decides to contact me.

Grandpa said he would talk to my father as soon as he gets back from his trip, and Mom said I wouldn’t go back to his house until he starts seeing a therapist.

I’m a mess. Seriously, I don’t know what to think.

We were never too close, at least not after I moved out when I was 5…

But this? It’s just too much for me. I can’t take it anymore. I’m sick and tired of being treated this way, specially because he never hurted my sister (who lives with him). Only me, who sees him rarely and for a short amound of time. I just don’t get it.

I’d love to know you guy’s opinions on this subject…

If you’re a Mom, have you ever hit your children? If you’re not – are you against it? Do you think that hurting your kids physically can be helpful while raising them?

And, most importantly… What would you do if you were me?

Just curious. And confused, I guess.

Sorry for being such a Debbie Downer today, guys… I didn’t mean to, and I completely understand if you skip this post. I promise I’ll post again tomorrow to show you some food pics, funny stories and hilarious pictures. No more Dad talk, ok? I swear.

Thanks for being always so comprehensive and sweet.

XOXO

Tik Tok

2011-03-28T23:57:00.001-03:00

Good evening, everyone!

So, I guess I’m on a real music-y vibe these days… On a “pop vibe”, more specifically! Go figure, haha.

I planned on posting last night, but I had a math test today… which obviously had to come first :/

But here I am! I told ya’ I’d be back, didn’t I? Haha.

This weekend was pretty fabulous… even though I didn’t get to leave the house so much at night – study comes first! But it was definitely fun, nonetheless.

On Saturday, I spent pretty much the whole day at home… I had so much to do! I went on a 1-hour run with Mom by noon, which was nice. Because of the high temperatures around here (Brazil’s pretty hot all year ‘round!), I was sweating like a pig when I got back home. At least I had a big smile on my face – must be the endorphins!

Then I was left home alone while Mom visited Grandma with Lelê, Baby Mig and stepfather (have I mentioned that studying Maths is REALLY boring?). I had figure out lunch by myself, which was pretty awesome… I tried to be creative :)

“Carrot Noodles” with (only single) Sundried Tomato

Chicken+Vegetable Wheat Pie, chayote, beets and baked sweet potato

Altogether, now (ignore the ketchup, please… I didn’t use it, haha)

Later on, I went out for dinner with Mom, stepfather and his daughters! It was pretty awesome – I ordered a salad I personally love :)

Before going to bed, I decided to finally create a Twitter account for my blog!

Follow me at @FroYoLoverBlog if you want (please? hahaha)

I woke up kind of early on Sunday, so I studied, played with Baby Mig and Lelê (I tried to teach her how to speak english! It was really funny – she’s SO sweet!), and managed to have some fun. Breakfast was nice and simple:

Fiber One cereal with papaya slices (plus non-pictured coffee with milk, which I’m starting to love)

When lunch time rolled around, though, I wasn’t hungry. My stomach hurted really bad. I didn’t know exactly what to do… so I waited. Almost nine hours after breakfast, when Mom decided to take us to the mall, I finally ate. And it was glorious!

Make-Your-Own salad – with my all time favorite toppings!

Plus a glass of fresh OJ and a side of sliced pineapple and mango

We had dessert, too!

Whole Wheat Banana Pie

So that pretty much sums up my weekend. School today was pretty boring… The highlights were the boys’ soccer match during break and volleyball during P.E. class. The end.

But after school today, I decided to take one of my Mom’s yoga classes. So I had lunch at NaMedida, as usual :)

Cheese and Herbs quiche with chickpea and roasted zucchini+eggplant salad (Matte Tea on the side)

After her class (which was amazing! I felt so much more relaxed afterwards), we went back home. I only had the time to finish my geography assignment and take a quick shower – I had to run to the bus-stop!

Luckily, I was able to find a bus in no time. After around 20 minutes, I arrived at my Aunt’s house – where I met my Grandpa and my cousin Peter Paul. He’s only 10, but definitely the coolest and the sweetest boy I’ve ever met :)

We chatted, joked, laughed, bought books, and then sat at Ráscal for dinner. They chose to share a large pizza, while I decided to get food from their salad buffet (obviously).

Plate #1 (+ stuff they asked me to bring to the table so they could eat, too)

Plate #2 (+ stuff they “ordered” – haha)

I also tried half a baby “vegetarian” calzone – holy YUM! I wish I had taken a picture of that one. We had plenty of leftovers, so I brought them home so Mom could try it too.

It was definitely an amazing day. Math test sucked, but at least I had so many fun things to do afterwards. YAY for the first day of the week! I’d say Monday was a complete sucess ;)

I’ll be at school until 5pm tomorrow… so I guess no posts until Wednesday :s

See you guys on Wednesday, though… Ok?

Love you all! Thanks for all the sweet “welcome back” messages!

Have a great Tuesday!

XOXO

The DJ Got Us Falling In Love Again

2011-03-25T23:22:00.001-03:00

Good evening, everyone!

Yep, I know I disappeared. Just like I said I wouldn’t :/

But there’s a bright side on that! I had (much) time to think. About blogging, about what I really want to do, what would I write about…

Not that I’ve reached a full conclusion, by any means. But at least I can say I gave it some though… And I’ve decided to give it a try!

Everyday blogging may not accur because I have classes from 7am to 5pm twice a week, and when I get home… You bet I’m T-I-R-E-D!

But, aside from that… I’d surely like to write as much as I can :)

So what do you say, awesome-sauce readers and fellow bloggers? Are you ready for Fro-Yo Lover’s comeback?!

Oh, and about the title… Maybe it wasn’t the DJ, but something definetely made me fall in love with blogging again… YOU GUYS! You guys rock, seriously – once I start, I just can’t stop reading you guys’ blogs! You’re all incredibly talented, and I feel really blessed to be a part of blogworld :)

On to what really matters… What have I been doing all this time?

I’ve been…

Playing with Baby Mig as much as I can (isn’t he the cutest thing ever?!)

Beeing a teenager and doing stupid things with my friends (we played soccer with my friend’s phone that day… It was kind of stupid, but SO fun!)

Spending quality time with my family :)

Watching plays with my friends - I’ve watched 3 plays in two months, a personal record!

And, obviously…

Eating delicious food!

(yep… these were all from the same restaurant! NaMedida, if anyone cares… Haha)

These are only I few pictures I took from the last few days. I’ve gotten used to not take pictures of my every meal, so I’m pretty sure I’ll only photograph a few ones. Besides, I’m pretty boring… And I eat the same things over and over again, haha. You guys would be tired of seeing the same pictures a hundred times, trust me.

Anyway… This is just the beggining.

I’m telling you, guys… I’m BACK!

Hope you’re all having a great Friday!

Wish you a great weekend!

XOXO,

Birthday Recap

2011-02-25T22:34:00.001-03:00

Hello, guys!

So, I know I promised a full recap “later”… but I surely didn’t plan to postpone that for so long! Unfortunately, now that classes have started and school’s pretty much taking over my life, I had no time to update you at all… But I’m considering going back to the blogging bandwagon. Reading you guys’ blogposts makes me want to do the daily post thing again too :)

Anyway, I’ll save that for later. Now, a February 9th 2011 recap!

*** Beware: this post is full of “:)”. But believe me, I was truly happy and I meant every happy face :) ***

I actually started celebrating my birthday on February 8th, my 16th birthday’s eve. Well, kind of… I stayed up late so I could celebrate my last minute as a 15 year-old girl and my first as a 16 year old (woman? haha). Does that count?

I went to bed a little later. Then, I woke up by 5:40am (I know, tough routine!) and sang “Happy Birthday” to myself over breakfast. But not before “printscreening” my iTouch Lock Screen. Just to make sure I’d remember that date and hour for a really long time :)

(Quarta-Feira means Wednesday, and Fevereiro means February… just to clarify, haha)

Gotta love my brithday breakfast of choice! CMIAJ (Cereal Mess In A Jar!) :)

I wasn’t even half-way through eating my beloved cereal+PB combo when Mom appeared… With Baby Mig on her hands! I wanted her to take a picture with me, but she refused. Too bad… Even though she barely slept that night, she always looks awesome ;)

So I went to school. It was the 3rd day of classes, which means not everyone remembered. But my close friends came to hug me and wish me a happy birthday. Even though I had to face 2 hours of physics, I was a happy girl :)

I came home to have lunch with Mom and Stepfather. It was amazing, they prepared all my favourites! I couldn’t have asked for a better birthday lunch :)

Right after lunch, Mom and I went to the mall to buy me some clothes – I needed something to wear at my dinner party! I found the most amazing skirt, and left the mall with a huge smile.

Upon coming back, I went out again to buy a slice of whole wheat banana pie (aka my favourite dessert EVER) so we could sing “Happy Birthday” with Baby Mig. He wasn’t allowed to attend my dinner party… considering he’s a 4-month old baby :/

The lady at the counter was so sweet… she asked me why so many people called/sent me messages and why I couldn’t stop smiling. I told her it was my 16th birthday, so she insisted on “surprising” me. I left her while I payed for the pie and, when I came back, I saw this:

CUTE! She wrapped it and gave it to me with the biggest smile on her face. So sweet :)

We sang “Happy Birthday” and took a few pictures. That’s where last post’s photo was taken ;)

Blowing the candles!

Birthday “cake”

Right after that, I had to run. I took a shower, got dressed, put on a little make up (which I should do more often) and ran to the restaurant where I’d meet my family.

As soon as I got there, the first family members started to arrive… I was so excited to see each and every one of them!

With Grandma J and Uncle Leo

Aunt R and my cousin M

With Mom and Bruna

Mom and Dad :)

With my “birthday cake”… a Whole Wheat Banana Pie from my favourite restaurant!

Making a wish… taken with my Aunt’s iPhone

A close-up on the pie (again, from her iPhone – sorry it’s too shaky)

I had a wonderful night. I ordered a cassava gnocchi with funghi sauce (which was SO good), but I barely had time to eat. I was too busy chatting with my amazing family :)

I chose to eat my slice at home, after all the craziness of slicing the cake, getting forks for everyone and making sure they all had plates on their hands. What was left?

Yep… I guess they liked it :)

My slice :)

I spent my last minutes as a “birthday girl” hugging my Mom and Stepfather. They’re so awesome, and I’m so grateful for having them by my side :)

After that I went to bed… smiling from ear to ear ;)

I’d say my 16th birthday was a SUCESS!

I still have to tell you guys about my birthday dinner on February 11th with my friends… But I’ll do that on the next post. TMI, right?

I guess I’ll see you soon. And I hope you guys didn’t die of boredom after reading this post, haha ;)

Until next time!

xoxo

Sweet Sixteen

2011-02-09T19:17:00.001-02:00

I have a “real post” coming up…

But I’m too excited and busy to post it now!

I’M OFFICIALLY 16!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

(Hahahaha, sorry about that. Did I mention how excited I am?)

I’ll probably do a full recap soon… But it’s February 9th, guys! Let’s celebrate!

Singing “Happy Birthday” with Baby Mig, Mom and Lelê

Now, before I leave, I wanted to ask you guys something…

As a personal “birthday gift” ;)

PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE do something that makes you happy today… whatever it is… without feeling guilty afterwards. Eat that piece of cake, hang out with your friends, read a book you adore, cook dinner or go on a date with someone you love.

Do that (and obviously think about me… haha, just kidding!), and I’ll have the best 16th birthday EVER! (insert SUPER smily face here)

Please let me know what you did to celebrate February 9th… I can’t wait to hear all about it :)

HAPPY FEBRUARY 9TH!

And… Happy Sweet 16 to myself, haha ;)

XOXO

One Week To Go

2011-02-02T23:56:00.001-02:00

Hey, people!

Before I begin, let me just say there’s only 7 DAYS (a week) until my 16th birthday!

Yay or Nay?

I was really excited at first, but then… I panicked. I mean, I didn’t know what to do. My 15th birthday pretty much sucked, and my lunch with friends/dinner with family were both terrible. Mainly because all I could think about was food and calories. I don’t remember a thing about my friends, our conversations, presents I’ve won (I didn’t win too many, to be honest… about 2 or 3 gifts from a few family members), the “Happy Birthday To You” song (I was much more worried about the cake I wouldn’t eat – I decided I didn’t want a cake, but then Grandpa’s wife bought me a cupcake/mini-pie so we could sing the song. I was SO pissed), etc.

Like… really?!

It was my birthday, all my loved ones were present, and all I could think about was how much weight would I gain after that day?! C’mon. How FREAKIN’ STUPID is that?!

To make a long story short, you can probably tell I want my 16th birthday to be awesome (and way much better then my 15th). But… what to do?!

I’ve been considering dinners, lunches, even parties (a no-go)…

I really wish we had the money to throw a party. The last party I’ve had was at my… 9th birthday? Or something like that. But my place is pretty small (considering the bunch of people/kids who live in it… and the fact that it is an appartment), and the family members who live near me have small appartments too. So… yeah. A no-go.

I might just have dinner with my family on February 9th (my day!) and… figure out something to do with my friends on the weekend.

Okay, enough rambling… but wish me luck, guys!

Onto another subject. A recovery update.

I’ve been doing pretty well, really… it’s just that I’ve been having lots of disordered thoughts lately. Feeling fat (ok, so fat is not a feeling… but you know what I mean), bloated, heavy, ugly…

But I’ve been ignoring ED’s voice. So far, so great. I haven’t restricted much… and I will not allow myself to do so. Relapsing right now would not be a smart idea… At all.

So my February goal is to STOP THE FAT TALK.

From Eden’s post on ED’s anger and many more, I came to the conclusion I don’t want to be “that girl” anymore. I want to be ED-free as fast as possible. So slipping IS NOT AN OPTION. I’m decided to face my fears and issues and take a stand.

Because I CAN do it. Anybody can. It’s just a matter of will. Recovery means nothing if you’re not willing to recover. And, believe me – I am.

By the way - I recently found this song in someone’s blog and just fell in love with the lyrics (even though the music video’s a bit hard to watch). So, if you’re like me and doesn’t curse, I’d say try singing “freaking perfect” instead ;)

Blogworld has encouraged me so much. I’m honest when I say – thank you, everyone. For the comments, posts and support. Seriously – I wouldn’t be here without you guys! You guys definitely rock :)

Oh, and on a brighter note: I went to the beach today with Mom and Lelê! It was actually really fun. Here’s a few pictures:

Oh, and before I forget – here’s another tag (again, written a few months ago)!

1.What is your favorite article of clothing?
2. What is your dream vacation?
3. Have you ever danced in the rain?
4. If you could design your own dream house, what would it look like? big and spacious, small and cozy, condo, etc..
5. If you won the lottery would you quit your job and move to Tahiti?
6. If you could only drink one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
7. What would you name your first born son or daughter?

1- Probably shoes and coats (sweaters, hoodies… I like them all :) )

2- A tour through Europe – specially France and England. And maybe a little stop by the U.S. on my way back ;)

3- Not really… No, I don’t think so. I wish I had, though.

4- I’d probably live in a condo in a vibrant neighborhood – with nice restaurants, all kids of shops, malls, bookstores, libraries… And maybe near college, in the future :)

5- Probably not. I’d keep on working – I hate the idea of being useless, haha.

6- It would be… fresh unsweetned OJ. I absolutely LOVE it!

7- That´s a good one. I changed my mind thousands of times, but when I was little, I really liked the name “Samantha” [edited to add: I’m in love with the name “Alice” right now. Just so you know, haha]. And, for a boy… I always liked the name “Harry”. (Yep. Harry Potter fan right here!)

Have a great week, loves – the countdown is ON!

XOXO,

Opening Up

2011-01-24T20:49:00.001-02:00

Hey, there!

Sorry for being MIA both here and on you guys’ blogs – I just got back from a trip with my best friends. It was incredibly fun, and definitely the highlight of my summer vacation.

Aren’t they gorgeous? Plus, the boxer’s name is Scooby… From Scooby-Doo!

Spider Man was there, too

Let’s just pretend I can play soccer… Hahaha

We had a trampoline for ourselves! It really couldn’t get any better.

I also met a few friends of my friend Luiza… They turned out to be great girls :)

I had to choose between a trip with my family to attend my cousin’s 10-year-old party (at the beach) or a trip with my best (girl) friends to Luiza’s house, with her family. It was a 5-day-thing, but worth every discussion with Mom and Dad.

They were actually pretty worried because of Teresópolis’s floods (the city we were headed to was near to where the floods took place), but Mom ended up letting me so. Somehow, she and I knew I needed that. You know, a few days of “carefree-ness”, fun with friends, no overthinking… just being myself. And I find it so easy when I’m near these girls.

On our 1st night there, I decided it was time to tell them my “big secret”. They knew I had eating issues, but I never explained myself the right way. So I opened up and told them all about my ED. I told them I started having disordered thoughts since I was 11, that I gained an incredible amount of weight back, and then lost it all again on 2010… I also told them about my blog, what I felt at my darkest days, why they couldn’t find me on lunch breaks… Everything.

They decided to open up, too – so they started telling me about how they felt about it, how much they wanted to grab me, shake me and force me to eat, how worried they were that I would end up in hospital… Basically everything, too.

I knew that they would someday ask about what was going on with me. Sooner or later, they would find out. And the last thing I wanted was them to know it by a “third person”. It had to be me.

It felt so good, it felt to right. Telling them the truth was the best thing I could’ve done. I’m proud of myself, but I’m happy I have such understanding and loving friends. Their reaction could be awful, but they were incredibly supportive. We all cried together, and then all three of them gave me hugs (right after a big group hug), whispering “I’m so proud of you” on my ears.

Seriously, I never felt so blessed and loved. Just remembering that night makes me want to cry – of hapiness. I guess I do have the best friends in the world :)

Anyway - I hope you all liked my last post… Posting those pictures was kind of embarring, but really worth it! They made me remember so many different things, memories… It was definitely a fun and positive experience.

Now, onto today’s news: I “won” a giveaway!

I mean, not really. But Sarah from This Lunatic Express decided to send me one of her (incredible) zines for entering her contest. She’s such a sweetheart :)

After almost 17 days of (anxious) wait, it’s finally here! I’m SO excited!

She even let me choose my favorite one! "My Baggy Pants" and "By The Skin Of My Teeth - Issue Three" caught my eye. Finally, I decided that “My Baggy Pants” had more to do with me.

And I was SO right! I felt like I could relate to every single word I read. Sarah’s incredibly talented, and her life story was truly inspiring. I couldn’t stop smiling at the end! She definitely made my day :)

Please contact Sarah if you’re interested on buying one of her brilliant zines. Believe me when I say, they’re hand-made and AMAZING!

Again – thank you, Sarah :)

Now, before I leave, here’s another award I won and never posted: the “Creative Writer Blogger Award”!

So here are the rules:
1. Thank the person who gave this to you. (I actually don’t remember who gave me this – shame on me! Sorry and thank you, “person”!)
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you.
4. Tell up to six outrageous lies about yourself, and at least one outrageous truth.
5. Nominate seven “Creative Writers” who might have fun coming up with outrageous lies.
6. Post links to the seven blogs you nominate.
7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know you nominated them.

1) My favourite animals are dogs!

2) I love all kinds of chewing gums.

3) I wanted to become a doctor when I was little.

4) I love roller-coasters!

5) I used to love broccoli as a kid.

6) I have a birthmark on my chest.

7) I have an Oscar on my desk right now

There are two “truths” among this seven items. Let’s see which of you will find them out!

I nominate:

Sarah, from This Lunatic Express

Marina, from Piece of Mind

Rocío, from Apicious’ Apprentice

Nicole, from A Handful Of Oats

Ayla, from High On Healthy

Missy, from Beautiful Struggle

Christine, from The Raw Project

Have fun, girls!

Oh – and don’t forget to vote for your favorite name for my latest recipe! It’s easy, and you can find the poll box on the sidebar on your right, near my “Fro-Yo Lover” header. Vote as much as you want!

See you guys soon.

XOXO

Am I Stylish?

2011-01-17T03:16:00.001-02:00

Hello, everyone!

First of all, I know this is getting old, but I just can’t NOT thank you guys. Seriously, your comments never fail to make me smile. Again – THANK YOU!

Now, I’ve read some really amazing suggestions for my last cooking experiment… so I decided to make a poll!

It’s on the side – basically the first thing you’ll see after reading my blog’s title (“Fro-Yo Lover”) on the sidebar on your right.

*I tried to insert this poll on this post, but I couldn’t! After a few too many tries, I gave up. Could someone please tell me how to do this? I’m using Windows Live Writer, and it just doesn’t work!*

Can’t wait to see the results!

Now, onto the title…

You guys should know that not only one, but two lovely ladies nominated me for the “Stylish Blogger Award”!

First of all, I want to thank Madeleine (from Stepping To The Bright Side) and Jessica (from Tasty and Trim). Thank you so much, girls! I love your blogs, too ;)

Second of all… I gotta be honest. I was really surprised when I read the “stylish” part. I never really cared about clothes when I was young (I mean, a kid):

At the ripe age of one :)

Maybe 5 or 6 years old

At around 9 years old

10 years old

Around 11 years old (can you believe this is Lelê?! She and Baby Mig are SO alike!)

For side comparision.

Anyway – you get my point. Fashion was never my strongest suit.

On the last two (maybe three) years though, I’ve been developing more of a… how can I explain? Fashion sense? The thing is, this award couldn’t have come at a better time. I’m still the same non-fashionista Gabriela… but with better clothing :)

I like dressing up from time to time… who doesn’t, right?

Now, onto the award’s rules.

I must tell 7 random facts about me. Here we go!

1. When asked what would I want to be when I grow up, I would always answer “A writer”. Since I was 2. (I’m not even kidding – Grandma has videos of me saying so)

2. My Mom gave me birth when she was 25. So when she was 40, I was 15. (I love numbers that end with 5 – I was born on 1995)

3. He might not be aware of this, but my Grandfather (Mom’s Dad) is pretty much my favorite person in the world. Seriously, I don’t know what I’d do or where I’d be without him.

4. I love English. I mean, seriously. Sometimes I feel more comfortable writing in English then in Portuguese. Go figure!

5. I don’t have a “favorite color” per se, but when people ask me I always answer “white” – maybe because it reminds me of peace… Even if Lelê still says “White can’t be your favorite color. White’s not a REAL color! What’s white’s color?” (At this point, when I say “white” again, she’s pretty pissed off. So I let it go – poor baby… Haha.)

6. I (kind of) play the guitar. I mean, I love to sing and to play, but I’m not sure I’m actually good at it. Oh, the mysteries of life…

7. 13 is definitely my lucky number. And T-Swift totally stole that from me! (hahaha, just kidding. Or not…)

Hope you liked my random facts – because there’s more to come!

I recently discovered I was nominated for awards I never posted here!

I mean to do post at least one tag/award per post. How does that sound to you guys? Pretty acceptable, right?

So, yeah!

Vote for your favorite recipe name, and let me know if you could relate to any of my random facts!

(I’m sure I’m not alone… or am I?)

See you guys soon!

xoxo

Sorry, Mom…

2011-01-08T04:30:00.001-02:00

… but this post will be about food.

I mean, of course I talk about food. In a regular basis.

But it’s been a while since I actually posted a food picture here. Maybe a few months..? Anyway. The point is, I won’t be posting food pictures the way I used to anymore.

My days of every-morsel-of-food-photographer are over.

And I don’t mean to take food pictures too often (so soon).

It can be a great way to track calories for those who want to loose weight, and it can be fun in general for those who are food bloggers. But I learned that it quickly became a somewhat obsessive habit to me.

So I’d rather take no daily food pics. At least, for a while… or until I’m ok with it. I’m used to read blogs like Gabriela’s, Kath’s or Tina’s – and they usually post their daily eats. I think there’s nothing wrong with it. Actually, I just might become a true food-blogger someday (as I truly love the nutrition/fitness topic), but for now… I think I’ll challenge myself “secretely”.

My goal is to be back with a “deemed un-healthy” food pic from something I ate. Does that sound like a challenge? Haha.

Well, enough with the explanations. Let’s get to the point here.

While at Grandma’s (and Dad’s) house, I tried a few recipes. First one was basically inspired in some bloggers’ recipes (like Ashley, Caroline, etc) for nut butters – walnut butter.

No exact mesurements for this one – I just threw some walnuts in a bowl and used Grandma’s hand mixer – that’s maybe why it turned out a little too dry. I did a little taste-test and thought something was missing…

And a little salt did the trick! It tasted good. I planned on mixing it again the next day (to make it more creamy), but Grandma’s sister (who was staying with us for NYE) accidentaly threw it away. Too bad :/

Grandma says we should totally do this again, though! She’s lovely ;)

For the next one, I used no recipe at all – I wanted to make a vegetable-based recipe “from the scratch”, make up my own recipe. The result?

A little burnt, but delicious nonetheless. I really suck at coming up with names, so… I could use some suggestions. I’ll give y’all the recipe, you name it. Deal?

Ingredients:

- 1 medium eggplant

- 1 large zucchi

- 1 cup tomato sauce (you may use a little less if you want)

- Cottage Cheese (for sprinkling on top, I used about 1/4 cup)

- 1 cup ricotta cheese

- 1/2 a can of canned tomatoes (optional)

Directions:

Slice the zucchini and the eggplant. Spread about 1-2 tbsp of tomato sauce in a medium bake pan, then start placing the slices of zucchini and eggplant until you covered all its surface. Spread a little more tomato sauce (and a canned tomato or two, if you like), then place the ricotta a tbsp at a time. Cover it with more vegetable slices, then repeat the same process. Upon your last layer of vegetables, spread the leftover tomato sauce and then sprinkle the cottage cheese. Bake for 20 minutes on medium heat, or until cooked and golden.

Too bad I was the only one who ate this on NYE. I ate the whole tray in about 4 days. I had a very happy tummy :)

And now a snack I’m obsessed about. When I don’t feel like having a real dinner, I simply throw a bigger amount of these same ingredients and call it a night. Such a delicious combo!

Ladies and gentleman, I present you…

Fiber One Cereal, Frozen Banana Slices and a blob of Peanut Butter.

C’mon, people. Doesn’t it SOUND amazing?!

Who needs yogurt when you could have a cereal mess. Haha.

And, since I mentioned frozen bananas… I’ve been really loving frozen fruit these days! Bananas, Mangoes (I wish I could try raspberries and blueberries, but they’re too expensive around here)… It’s awesome.

I have a few more recipes/combos/food pics to share, but I’ll keep that for another post. Hope you’re having a great weekend, guys!

xoxo

P.S.: Oh, and I almost forgot to say this – yesterday was Mom’s birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!

Mom, Me and my sister Bruna (On NYE, 2009/2010)

Having fun at Harvard’s Square Parade

Ice-skating on Central Park (I wish I’d learn how to ice-skate like her)

At her birthday party last year (and yes, I’m re-using the NYE dress, ok?)

At her birthday party yesterday

Love you, Moms. You know that, right?

Don’t forget to send me your name suggestions for my zucchini and eggplant recipe! I don’t want to sounds desperate… But I am. Hahaha.

See you guys soon!

Last Post of The Decade

2010-12-31T02:43:00.001-02:00

Hello, everyone!

How cool is that, people? Today’s the last day of the decade!

And, of course, my last post, too.

That makes me incredibly happy… but a bit sad, too. I mean, 2010 flied! Don’t you think so?

I almost couldn’t believe it when Dad told me today was New Year’s Eve. Is it? Haha.

2010 was definitely a great year. I mean, obviously, I’ve had my ups and downs. But overall, I’d say it was a success.

And, by the way – your comments on my last post helped me SO much!

I talked to Mom, and instead of saying she’d stop, she taught me valuable lesson.

She said: “I don’t read minds. Nobody does. You should know by now that people usually joke. And jokes are not always nice. I’m sorry I hurted you, but you shouldn’t be so upset. You shouldn’t let people’s words get to you so much. Otherwise, everytime someone disappoints you or says something “wrong” or “bad” about you, you’ll be devastated. And I don’t want to see you sad and unhappy all the time. I want to see you strong and happy. Be strong, sweetheart.”

Ok, so maybe these were not her exact words. But it’s the same message.

It was kind of hard to hear, but I know it’s true. I shouldn’t let people’s comments and jokes get to me so much.

Isn’t our Moms (almost) always right?

Anyhow, I figured I should post a few reasons why I’m actually proud to be short.

I might not be able to reach to the highest shelf…

(taking pics with the “timer” function isn’t easy, ok?)

But I can sure hide rather easily when I feel like it

(and yep, I’m smiling. But you can’t see it because I’m playing with my iPod, haha)

I should be proud of who I am. No matter how tall (besides, I’m only 15. I might just grow a few more inches… Hehe)

A little Christmas recap:

At the mall, with Lelê and Baby Mig

At my Family’s Christmas Dinner (on December 23rd… long story, haha)

At Grandma’s house, on Christmas Eve

At Grandma’s (Dad’s Mom) house on Christmas Day. Love this picture!

I guess that’s all. Oh, and before I forget about it – last year, I recorded a Christmas video with a super-talented friend of mine called Renata. We’re still on Holiday season, right? Haha. I hope you like it!

Wish you all an amazing NYE and a 2011 full of joy, accomplishments, happiness and health!

Love you all SO much.

Bring it on, 2011!

XOXO

So Sick

2010-12-26T21:09:00.001-02:00

Please don’t worry guys!

I’m not really sick. I mean, I am, but not health-wise.

Allow me to explain: I’m sick of these STUPID jokes.

Everytime Mom, Lelê, Bruna and I are together, she (Mom) says: “Let’s see who’s the highest one here!”.

And I’m SO. DARN. SICK. OF IT.

Let’s just say my Mom isn’t so tall. She’s maybe 5’3 1/2. So me and my sister Bruna were always not-so-tall/average (Lelê is SO TALL for her age. 4’0 for a 5 year-old girl?!).

The thing is: since I started the yo-yo diet thing (ED-related), I haven’t grown much. Which means that my sister, 1 year and 10 months younger then me, is my height (maybe a liiitle bit taller).

She’s skinnier then me. She’s always been skinnier then me. We’ll never weight the same, we’ll never have the same bodies.

But now that she’s my height, “comparasions are easily done”. You know what I mean?

Now, she has grown normally for all her life. I haven’t. I actually haven’t seen a doctor in a long time, so I don’t even know if I’ll grow any more inches.

But this “who’s the tallest” thing bothers me so much. It’s like always remembering me how anorexia made me short.

And she thinks I never knew that?! She thinks it never bothers me that I could’ve grown much more? Have a regular period? Does she think I never torture myself for all this things? That I never feel guily?!

It’s enough, for crying out loud. I’ve been eating so much more lately. Even stepfather said I was much more healthy. So WHY does she have to keep remembering me that I’m SHORT? It’s tough enough to LIVE WITH IT! Gosh, doesn’t she know it hurts me?

Here’s what happend: Mom asked me to go the grocery store with her. I said ok. Then, all of a sudden, everyone else wanted to go, too. Ok. Even though I didn’t really feel like going (the only reason I was going at first was because Mom did not want to go on her own), I decided to go anyway. So, we were all waiting for the elevator, when Mom asked “let’s line up according to our heights”.

Ok, it may not seem much, but it was enough to piss me off. I screamed back, without a second though: “SHUT UP! Just… SHUT UP!”

And I started crying. I went right back home, and closed the door behind me. I cried for a long time. I went to the living room to take the phone and call her – to tell how much she had hurted me.

But then stepfather kinda made me calm down. He said he understood. And that what she said was really wrong. He even added: “You know, if you think about it, they’re kind of bullying you”.

I know what I did was wrong. I didn’t plan on saying “shut up” to my Mom, by any means. But I was SO pissed, SO sick of all these retarted jokes, I exploded. If you’re reading this (but I’m sure you’re not, since you went to the grocery store)… Sorry, Mom. But please, just stop! It’s so not funny anymore.

Ok, so now I stopped crying. Sorry, everyone. I didn’t want this to be such a downer post… Specially after such a wonderful day (aka Christmas).

By the way – I won the new iPod Touch! And I’m really excited about it.

Ok, so I better shed my tears and go get something to eat. My belly’s growling!

Love you all. Thanks for reading this.

XOXO,

So Sick

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