Salut, mes amis!
As you can see, I’m in a very french mood right now…
Hahaha – I have SO many things to share!
- the National History Olympics have officially begun! Me and my team passed the 1st phase, and the 2nd one is on until tomorrow- I´m so excited!
- my baby brother is on his way! Mom went to the doctor today, and everything’s ready for the big day :)
- my portuguese composition was chosen! Technically speaking, I WON the competition! Me and a few other students had their composition picked to be a part of a book by SINEPE (an institution that represents all schools in my estate – Rio de Janeiro). M. Marília (the directress of my school) came to congratulate me, and now all my teachers are coming to me to say how happy they are for me. YAY!
Well… I guess those are the top 3 news.
Besides, I´ve been:
- studying a lot
- hanging out with my friends as often as I can (YAY for “carefree-ness”!)
- taking food pics (I plan on stopping this soon… seriously)
- trying on new workouts, like hydrogymnastics
But, most of all, I´ve been trying to focus on my recovery.
It´s harsh. Everybody knows it. I knew it.
Yet I did not know it would be so… unstable.
I just read Fi’s post on her recovery path these days… And Jessica’s…
And I often feel the same way. More often then not, I feel that recovery is not worth it. I have really bad self-image right now, and I’m constantly “double-checking” just to make sure I’m still thin. To see if my clothes are still ridicously big on me. If my size 0 pants are still falling to the ground. It’s actually pretty ridiculous.
I WANT to recover. But it seems like wanting is not enough – I need to do something about it. To keep my eyes on the big prize: heath (as my gorgeous friend Gabriela says).
I feel like I’m beeing such an hypocrite all the time. And… maybe I am.
I mean… talking and writing about it is the easy part. But the real deal, the EATING part? That’s another story.
I’m so sorry to bother you all with my personal issues. But I need to let it out somehow – I know that the fault is all mine. Not my Mom’s. Or my Dad’s.
Actually, they’re the good guys. They only want me to be happy. And even after all this time, they didn’t give up on me. How incredibly kind is that? “Incondicional love” does exist, people. I know that now.
Anyhow… I just feel that I should really take this whole thing more seriously. I don’t want to hear from people around me that I look like a 11-year-old little girl anymore. I want to grow, to have my period back, to have my healthy glow back, my “voluptuous” butt back…
I do. I do. I do.
Please, let me know if you guys have any ideas. I feel like I have started this whole thing with the wrong foot. I wanna do it right… And I might need some help.
On a happier note… Life without calorie-count is AMAZING. Seriously, I’ve never felt so free before. I might have a long way to go… But I finally took the first step!
Let’s see what we have in here, photo-wise…
WOW. Get ready…
Baked Sweet Potato, Baked Beans, Grilled Chicken, Sautéed Spinach, Egg Farofa
Grilled Chicken, Steamed Veggies
Toast with Requeijão, Skim Milk with Chocolate Powder
Medium-Sized Plain Fro-Yo with mango and pineapple as toppings
Apple (once or twice a day, sometimes more)
Spinach Quiche, Chickpea Salad, Tabouli Salad and fresh OJ
“There’s a cat in my backpack!”
Sushi-filled plate, ginger, raw veggies and pineapple
Sashimi hand rolls, sashimi pieces (salmon, tuna, white fish, grilled tuna)
Cute sushi rolls
Caprese Tower, Spinach Quiche, Tabouli Salad
Medium-Sized Plain Fro-Yo – with pineapple and mango
Carrot-Ginger soup with Whole Wheat Cracker
Lunching with Grandma!
Fresh OJ on the side
Goat Cheese Soufflé Salad for sharing
“Holy YUM, Grandma!”
Smoked Salmon and Cream Cheese Baguette for her
Zucchini Bread – bought for later on!
It tasted amazing, by the way… :)
Just the usual…
Salad: cherry tomato, grated beets and carrots, broccoli, cauloflower, heart-of-palms, turkey breast, buffalo mozzarella and gorgonzola
Beet Pie, Grilled Chicken, Black Beans, Farofa
Leftover Pesto Cassava Gnocchi
Toast, Cottage Cheese, Apple
My usual quiche combo with a side of Iced Tea
Salad from Frontera’s buffet
Dessert: pineapple and mango
Baked sweet potato and pumpkin, tomatoes, grilled chicken, beets, farofa, black beans
Toast+Cottage Cheese, chocolate powder with skim milk
The usual quiche combo with a side of fresh OJ
Baked sweet potato and pumpkin, tomato slices, farofa and black beans, two turkey meatballs
Sweet Potato, Pumpkin, Black Beans, Farofa
Turkey Breast and White Cheese Calzone
“Summer Plate” at Vegetarian Rio
Grandma’s Feast – pasta, black beans, cassava, heart-of-palms, chicken, spinach pie
Turkey Breast and Ricotta on a Whole Wheat Bread anf Fruit Salad on the side
Mango, Pineapple, Papaya. Layered :)
Mango, blog-style cut :)
Hard-Boiled Egg, Veggie Quiche, Grilled Veggies…
Plus take #2, because Mom told me to
Wow. I’m so sorry – this is just a mess. To be honest, it seems like this whole post was all over the place. I guess I just had way too many pics to share. And this is only about half of them! Eeeeek, hahaha :)
Anyway… I guess this is it. I’be coming back soon, to update you all on my “recovery status”…
Oh, guys. I can’t thank you enough.
Thanks for reading, commenting, writing me back… I really appreciate it.
Wish you a wonderful evening!