(If you feel like reading a not-so-positive post/note will affect your day in a bad way, please don´t read the rest. Keeping the good memories is important, too.)
Yet again, it´s been a while.
Yes - I´ve been crazy busy with stuff from school. Vacation starts in two weeks, but the last one will be 100% tests. Which means I have a two crazy busy weeks ahead until I´m free. Not so exciting, oops.
But, anyhow. I felt like I needed to give you guys some explanation. So many things have happend this week…
Some good ones. But mostly bad things :/
- I had real ugly fights with Mom. She cried, I cried, we both cried… a lot. Have I told you how much I hate arguing with her? She´s most probably the best Mom in the world – everybody in school “wants my Mom”. Seriously - she´s the. sweetest. Mom. ever.
- I slipped.
Yes, sir. Remember the post I´ve written back on June 7th? All forgotten and ignored. Yet again.
That´s why I didn´t post for so many days. Or why I blogged only about the good points. Because the bad ones were, well… really, really bad.
I went to therapy on Thursday and to a homeopathy doctor on Friday. Both of them were hard… I cried tons. Quietly, but I did. And I hate crying in front of people.
Oh, and the possibilities of me entering an IP program during vacation are high. I mean, really high.
To make a long story short – my Mom´s sick of “watching me die”. Kill myself. Suicide. Whatever works.
And now, she´s arguing with Dad about what should they do with me. Nobody wants to stay with me. Nobody wants to have me around. And no, I´m not kidding. They said that to me, word by word.
How do I feel about all that?
I guess I don´t know. It´s weird. I feel like life´s passing by and I´m only watching it from the outside. I´ve been truly distant on the last few days.
Ugh, and I just feel so guilty. I should´ve taken care of myself. Now everyone is mad at me, including myself. Grrrrrrrr!
I´m sorry if I´m beeing too negative… But I promise I´ll end it on a brighter note.
First – some nice pics:
A soy burguer.
Chicken quiche, tomatoes, sweet potato
The best pear I´ve ever eaten
Sautéed spinach, steamed cauliflower, grilled chicken, tomato slices and a baked sweet potato
Vegetable-and-tofu-filled wrap (sans le wrap)
Shrimp, fish and veggie stir-fry
Leek quiche, mixed salad (lettuce, broccoli, carrot, cauliflower, heart-of-palms and mango)
Yogurt+crumbled granola bar, papaya slice
Ricotta and carrot sandwich
Heart-of-palms, cherry tomatoes, australian bread, brie, gorgonzola and gouda cheese slices
Ricotta and turkey breast sandwich
Fruit salad (with papaya, mango and pineapple)
Vegan Quibe, steamed veggies and salad (at a vegetarian place)
Crazy delicious salad (lettuce, beets, carrots, heart-of-palms, gorgonzola and buffalo mozzarella slices, broccoli, cauliflower, olives, turkey breast slices, cherry tomatoes, garbanzo beans…)
And – WOW! Pineapple and mango slices on the side. Holy. Freaking. YUM.
I´m so sorry guys, but… the last few days have been pretty exhausting. I skipped some meals, threw some food away… And I know that´s not right.
I feel that, from now on, my posts will be 100% text. Mom doesn´t want me to take anymore pics of my eats, and I think she´s kind of right. For some people (like me), it may turn into an obsession. I wouldn´t eat anything I hadn´t pictured at first hand. So, since I´m trying to eliminate all disordered behaviours from my life… I should really try not taking food pictures on a regular base.
So..yeah. I guess I´ve written a lot, already. Hehe.
I´ll be back soon, I promise!
Thank you all for reading and supporting. You´re the best, guys :)